i love my zombies i love my teddy bear i love my life!

morning songs just a sample my list is loooong

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these r my songs i have on repeat today

why is it that it always seems that i always find a way to bring myself down .....

cant figure myself out ..................

i should be the happiest person in the world but this depression im stuck with find its way to ruin my day :( i know nothings wrong i love my life now im not rich or famous like i planned haha but im in a good place in my life and its like i cant figure out y i cant just shake this stupid feeling it consumes me i tried the zombie pills the dr prescribs when u ask for help and havin two zombies dont mix with feeling like a zombie its not fair to them and i tried exercising blah i tried talking to shrinks! argh! nothing seems to work. i write poetry it seems to help just a little i even think happy thoughts well as happy as i can! maybe im just doomed dont get me wrong i have my good days too ill wakeup smile and feel good then bam! it hts me its like something keeps me from just living my life n loving it im just trying to figure myself out i dont want to be one of those people who take life for granite and realize it when its to late! hmmmmm and it also doesnt help when my anxiety attacks happen so unexpectly ugh i hate that feeling aswell man im messed up! my goal is to find a way to stop this maddness inside of me and snap out of it in the mean time im gonna listen to some depressed mode and morrissey n drink my coffee ................

ok i know i always say i have two zombies! wich is true but before they started eating brains my danny was and still is my wolfboy!

lol even tho he sheds i dnt mind grabbing the lint brush lol

i really love this drawing it brought out his features lol

this is my wolfboy!

just another great band that i love ill get into more of my other favorites just one i just had to share

just a few not half of what i want to show eh this is good enough for now............................................

so today i came across a very old video of my zombie when she was 2 and a half she was so in love with lady gaga this made me cry she was so little shes my baby always

this is my sweetest perfection hehehe time flies by so fast :( but its so much fun in the process :)

i discovered this beautiful man when i was 5 and i can say through out all my messed up little life hes been there when no one was even thru the good times and back to the bad suffering i had to endure i can honestly say i love this man he sang my life and didnt miss a single thought morrissey one day ill get to hug you and thank you myself til then i can only dream of the day!

his words speak for themselves one day ill have my words written down and maybe someone out there will listen and maybe ill be able to help someone thats just like i was and not feel alone!

this is my all time favorite

heres another i will post more soon ok i lied this is my favorite! i want it played at my funeral no joke ive cried to this song many times :( i know its not his original video but oh well i just wanted the song lol any ways enjoy maybe if anyone reads these ill be inspired to write about my life on here if not its ok :)